Yes! Yes!

Listen most of the way through.


I love summer.


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Yes

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Optimism!

In the last couple of days almost nothing has gone as planned. In a couple of major ways, events did not pan out as I would have liked. So I spent the day or so feeling bad, as evidenced as the post below.

Today though at mentor training (which was mildly interesting and kind of a mini-first day of school), we kept tossing around "optimism". We had to answer all of these questions and the answer, very simply, kept being optimism. It was mostly a joke but it (combined with a long walk home) got me thinking. Optimism is sort of the answer to my doldrums. I expected some instant grand change in my world, which of course didn't happen because it never does. And then I let the bad stuff cloud my vision. But the truth is, all of this only make the potential for good things that much greater. I love this idea.

In other news I've been working out every day and I just feel so much better. I have ideas if you need them...

Also I'm thinking of starting a new blog with a friend of mine. Thoughts on blogspot vs. some other provider?

And now..

I'm getting a little frustrated. I traveled rather a lot this summer, did a ton of things on my own. And I felt like I changed a lot. But now that I'm home I remembered that the world around me hasn't. And that is disappointing.

I am a firm believer that a person creates their world. If you don't like it there's always something small you can do to change it.

I'm having a hard time taking my own advice.

Soundtrack to My Summer

Happiness from Charlie Brown.

"Happiness is learning to whistle. Tying your shoe for the very first time."

Don't Stop Believing by Journey.

"Oh the movie never ends. It goes on and on and on and on."

One Short Day from Wicked.

"Two good friends. Two best friends. Sharing one wonderful. One short...DAY."

I Do Not Hook Up by Kelly Clarkson.

"I do not cook but I can clean, up this mess."

Any Song from Joseph and the Technicolor Dream Coat.

"Any dream will do."

Paparazzi by Lady Gaga.

"We'd be so fantastical."

Homecoming by Kanye West.

"Do you think about me now and then?"

Never Ending Story Theme Song from The Never Ending Story.

"The answer to our Never Ending Story."

Livin' On A Prayer by Bon Jovi.

"We're halfway there."

Summer Loves

Maybe tomorrow (or the next day) you'll get an actual description of what I've been doing for the last couple weeks. For now, enjoy!

I love hand clapping games in the dark and the HA game on air mattress.

I love movies late at night and running the fan to fill the silence.

I love small streets in Barcelona and huge highways in Los Angeles.

I love the buzz of my phone and the click of a camera.

Going to bed late and waking up later.

Writing letters and buying keychains and.

I love warm weather and cool oceans.

I love new clothes and old pajamas.

I love the best movies in the world and the best worst movies.

I love sprinklers and lights and music.

Hot dogs and hamburgers and more hamburgers.

The Pie 'n' Burger and In and Out Burger.

I love my dogs and other peoples dogs and even birds that wake me up.

I love small doors and even smaller apartments.

I love the boys, the friends and the family in my life.

I love the smell of horse except that I don't but I love horses

Singing loudly down the stairs and reciting entire musicals.

Bad nicknames and even worse jokes.

I love beaches and boba tea and starbucks and gelato.

Most Amazingness

So there are some of the most amazing people in my life. And it's summer. So some of them are gone. And some of them are just in my life for the summer. But somehow that makes all of them just that much more special.

In the past couple of weeks, and the weeks to come, I'm doing things I've never done and I'm extremely excited and absolutely petrified. And all of these things are that much more amazing and that much more approachable slash bearable!

I'm CITing at a camp. There are 5 other CITs who I spend all my time with. Which could basically suck. Except that every single one of them is an incredible person. Who knows if I'll see any of them after Friday (the idea makes me sad) but I've never laughed or sung so much in a week, especially with people who I really don't very well. They may not know this but I can be shy. And my confidence in my singing voice... fleeting at best. Somehow in the last week, I sang, not just sang, led camp songs in front an entire bus. I got up on stage and sang an a cappella version of Journey. Somehow in the last week, I've gained a big sister, a nana, an aunt who used to be an uncle, and became a triplet.

Knowing these wonderful people, has made me miss the stellar people who are normally in my life and at the same time, appreciate them all the more. Today I did nothing because my mummy told me to. And that was lovely. My little sister made me breakfast. I have people I can call in the middle of the night. And I can be called in the middle of the night. People who make me laugh, who are there when I cry. Thank you, amazing incredible people!